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One Soldier's Journey Recently, stranger came to visit the Miles Jesu community in Rome, and without asking me she prayed over me in her own language. She held my hands and put her hand on my head while she prayed. After the lady left i said to Marketa: “i didn’t like how that lady prayed over me.” I didn't think about it anymore, because in Miles Jesu it is one of our customs not to go by our feelings. I began waking up during the night with bad thoughts, i felt very shaky, i couldn’t pray, i could not say the rosary as often as usual. I felt i was always in a rush, especially when going to the Chapel. This went on for about 5 days. I kept getting upset with people for no reason at all. I asked my Guardian Angel to pray for me and help me. I didn't realize what was wrong with me, and i was very sad as well. Fr General asked me if there was something wrong with me. I told him no because i didn’t think anything was bothering me at that time. Afterwards, i started thinking: when did i start feeling like this, what brought this on. I realized that it started after the lady had prayed over me. A couple of days later i told Fr. General what was happening to me. He prayed with me and i felt more peace. He told me that after Benediction, that evening, everyone in the community would pray over me. That evening Fr. Knoll was giving Benediction then Fr. Gelis told me that Fr. Knoll would pray over me with the monstrance. Fr Knoll put the humeral veil around me and placed the monstrance containing the Blessed Sacrament on my head. At that moment it was Jesus touching me and taking me into His veil telling me: “I take you into my Sacred Heart.” He was gentle and full of love. I can’t describe it. The minute the cloak touched me, i felt the power of Jesus freeing me from what was troubling me. I don’t remember anything after that. I could hear Fr Gelis repeating: “Are you okay, Kathleen?” But i didn’t have the strength to say “yes”. I could not move. I woke up on the floor but still i couldn’t move. All i felt was an indescribable love and peace. It was so nice that it brought me to tears, and afterwards i felt very shaky. Now i feel very peaceful and much stronger in my vocation. It made me realize that no evil or no man can have power over me. God has all the power. He can free us and help us with anything that troubles us once we ask Him. He is all-powerful. Kathleen’s Testimony Before my conversion i was very wild. My life was like many girls my age; i liked fashionable clothes, which were a big addiction for me, going to parties, having boyfriends in other words i liked to be the center of attention. I had all these things in my life but was missing the most important person, God. I was very far away from God because i was mixed up in material things. There was something missing deep down in me. I didn’t know what it was but i thought it was something i could achieve myself because “i knew it all”. When bad things happened to me i questioned God, little did i know that i was bringing them upon myself. I was very, very sad even though i come from a good family who always made sure i had all i wanted. One day i decided to go into a church and ask God to help me. I didn’t pray much or even attend Mass but God heard my prayer by taking away the emptiness and giving me the desire to serve Him, help others and give everything i had, everything i desired, everything i ever wanted to Him. All these things didn’t happen overnight. After some time, i began to pray more and to go to Mass. I realized that everything in this world will pass away and that we are here for a short time. One day, a friend of mine called me out of the blue and asked me “Do you want to go to a retreat?” I didn’t know anything about Miles Jesu or what the word retreat meant, until i got to the Miles Jesu house to begin the retreat. Jenny Stabb, M.J., explained to me what it was about. It was during the retreat while i was praying in front of the Blessed Sacrament that i realized what God wanted from me. Three days after the retreat, i left everything and joined Miles Jesu in Rome. Now i am in a traveling mission for God to save souls. Whoever reads this testimony, i hope God will let you know what your vocation is. No matter what it is, do not be frightened. God is with you all the way. |